Sunday, December 28, 2008
28/12/2008(I'm lost and am i right to still be friend with her?)
Last night was a day that i will never forget. As i'm very tired, so i decided to stay at home.
But when it was around 10, i sms to my ex-gf and asked her whether is she free to meet up for coffee as well as to pass her the Christmas present that i had brought for her. Surprised that actually she called me back. And when i picked up the phone, i knew something is not right.
And yess, i'm right! She asked me to go all the way up to AMK and meet her. That's something that we haven't done it for ages unless we confirm it afew days in advance. That's where i guess is her bf who wanted me to go up and meet him. What is all this about?
He wanted to quarrel with me again. And i told him off! Don't be such a childish guy and please think before you talk and i just hung up his phone. After that, i just called up Karen and told her what happend. She even sms to my ex gf and asked her what happened as they always sms each other. But in the end, he used her gf phone to reply to Karen and pretend to be as if that it was his gf who had sms me. How childish can he be? After discussing the problems with my friends, I felt that if she can't decide on what she want, why not i make up the decission myself? And in fact i put in such an effort to treasure this friendship but in the end, she kept hurting me time and time again. Is it fair for me?
Why can't she think and fight for her own rights? Have she ever put myself in her shoe? Are you really so useless to the extend that you are so scared of him? All he had was just a sweet mouth and can he give or provide you that what you expected from a guy? Come on and wake up from your dream k? Honestly speaking, i felt you are just Useless and No Guts for you to fight for your rights. Do you deserve what i have done for you as a friend? And also, is it about time for me to re consider our friendship for 6 years? I really started to doubt you as a friend after last night incident. I hate myself for loving you so much in the past and i thought everything should have been cleared up by now. But i was wrong, in fact you don't dare to confront him and tell him that we are just normal friends. Why must i lie to him? My heart is clear as i didn't do anything wrong.
Finally, you are just a Disappointment, Useless and Coward friend to me. I admit that i'm scared of him but at least i can said that, i'm much better then him. Matured, Gentleman, Helpful and lastly of course i'm a guy who can PROMISE AND DO IT. Not by just SAYING AND NO ACTION.
*Please think and if you want to treasure this friendship,
Don't hurt me time and time again.
Please let me trust you,
And think of the way that talked to you last night.
If you feel that he can give you happiness,
You go ahead.
If not, you will lose a trustworthy and also a guy who will be there for you if you need his help.
A good friend whom you can trust and will be there for you is not easy to find,
If you keep on hurting him,
In the end, you will regret and you will live if guilt from the way that you treat him,
So think what are you going to do next,
From the way that you handle all this problems,
I can felt that,
As times goes by,
I will not want to continue this friendship as you don't deserve all the things or help that i had done.
rOy wrote on 9:01 AM.
